Another day, another rejection

The days are starting to blur together, I wish there was a good excuse like a 4 day binge fest filled with fun parties with good pals but I am living in my own version of Groundhog Day. 

Lately each day is like the one before:

I wake up later than any 26 year should, 11 am is not exactly a respectable time to start the day outside of college!  Drink a cup of coffee and wish I was smoking a cigerette with that coffee and begin my daily Internet routine....Gmail, Perez, Facebook, and maybe just maybe if there is time Texts from Last Night or FML.  While browsing I watch 2 of the 10 daily episodes of Friends, amazingly I am still entertained by episodes I have seen a million times.  Once I've had my daily fill of Friends, I start hunting.

Hunting for work has taken over my life, the thorn in my side, a fucking headache, and a constant worry.  I am listed with every recruitment agency in the city, none of which have proved to be helpful.  From fundraising to dog walking, I have applied for it all.  2 1/2 degrees and I am not even a candidate for walking muts, god forbid any of my university's play 'where are they now?' with me!  I have been realistic about this search, not even teasing myself with work that is out of my league.  Each application (especially those that I would be perfect for) brings a momentary glimmer of hope, (I can almost feel the notes at my fingertips) only to have hopes dashed with unanswered emails, teases of interviews, and letters of rejection. 

I feel the judgement of the Albanians, I suspect they think I am being too picky or that I am not as qualified for work as I have led on.  The longer I go without a paycheck the more I worry about the entourage thinking I am using Beni.  They don't know that I am uncomfortable with each offer to pay or take care of me.  They don't realize that I did have a career (a shitty paying one but a career nontheless) and that I will again.  Luckily for me, Beni doesn't share these opinions but I can only accept his help for so long before really losing all confidence.....